Today. The day. 3/10/11

So today happened.

And in some ways, it went smoothly. And in others, it went horribly wrong and I was so stressed I was near the breaking point of sobbing at the drop of a hat.

I didn't get my sheets back on my bed. So I'm sleeping in a pile of snuggly blankets. I don't mind a bit.

I didn't get a dessert made, but I did make some yummy Jell-O things, and the boys were happy about that. :)

I didn't get Anatomy finished, that means parts of Saturday, and Sunday are going to be filled with it. *sigh*

I didn't help as much as I should have.

I'm staying up late to write this.

I was *STRESSED*.

I remembered Amy and wished that I was with her.




Eh.

Jesus is beautiful and He loves me. This is what matters.

Today happened. Which means that it was 3 1/2 years since Amy has been here. But I'm so glad she's not on this wretched earth. Life is hard and people disappoint.

DUDE! That was encouraging.

But it is true. Going through some reaaaaaaally hard things right now shows me that.

But also, Christ is FULL of mercy, and if something doesn't give Him the glory, He's not going to put me through it. So His name will be glorified in this hurricane.

Also, today happened, and I realized that I screwed up at work. I was checking ebay and we had a message from a buyer that had gotten the wrong item. Nothing like the one that happened to my co-worker, but OH MAN. Was I sick the moment I saw that. That was my biggest shipping fear.

And. It. Happened. Today.

*Sob*.

So I freaked, I prayed, (wrong order.), I told my Mama, I wrote my boss, I wrote my dearest co-worker ever, Abby and then I came up to my room and almost lost it. But then refrained, because if I started sobbing, it would end with me sleeping 12 hours and not spending the rest of the night with my dear family who has so graciously adjusted to my retarded schedule.

My boss replied, said that it was alright, that we're all learning. I still felt bad. Abby replied, said she was praying for me, and that she loved me, and that it was alright.

I laughed, I ate food, I spent the night watching a movie with my family and trying to get some Anatomy done.

So I'm officially through today and the major trials, I'm about to go to bed, and 'Be Thou Vision' is playing on Pandora.

My Jesus loves me, and I love Him.
This matters.
Life matters.
You matter.

Love to you,
Bethan.